The Fear In Me

Pain from my Eyes,
I cry.
Drowning myself;
but wanting to reach out and help.

Stalling, in slow motion,
trying to stay at the same speed.
So easy for you to move towards me,
Yet so hard to find that strength in thee to keep that promise.

To hold what you said to me,
It's me and you; If i fall,
so will you.

So I push me,
Push all the negativity,
Hoping I've got the strength in me.

My words are empty; and harsh you claim.
Though the words of a passerby, let's say,
Can change thy belief.

I am scared.
At times I wither,
of your effect on me.
I know where I need to be,
I also want a piece of the old me.

Wake up, and smell the fear in me.

The First Entry

My First Entry ...
Here Goes ...

"Untitled"

Left in the Dark,
Crying my Soul out.
I get left behind,
and they look me in the eye.
Trust in me, Talk to me;
your words I foolishly believed.

Confusion at Heart,
the perfect floetry; Gods' angels sing with me.
I'm praising the most high,
for I can no lonnger hide.

My pen touches paper,
the woman inside begins to waiver.
I can only hope,
that by some spectacular coincedence; you'll tell me what I need to know.
Which is exactly what I mean.

Truly ... I'm so confused right now; I'm a good person with amazing friends; had a hard few years (who hasn't ey !!) ... I just wish I could get my mind right ... Life is too short, there should be no regrets...So I'm not complaining, just trying to find my path